其实.....

Actually Do you know I feel unsecured and I can't even felt you were with me 

How should I know what you want ? Or is that exactly what you want???

Recently a lot of news about couple which be toghether long time but one of them betray of him or her 

Or new married couple after first born baby man got aother women....

All those news so effect me 

Every time try to reach you but u refuse....

Is this all couple do..???? The way u do just like those news what they tough 

"busy", "no money" 

But you got time with friends and family, u don have a single time for  me

宝贝是不是也是这样想....?

今天June Mama 最后第二天，然后她来了过后我就去吃东西咯~

无意间提起以前一些事情 当然还有"他"
有些东西我觉得"我们" 跟 "他们" 有相似
但是...我们之前还有很大的差别就是....
我们还没结婚 还没有孩子 过程是提到一些东西
宝贝是不是现在也是很想和朋友一起?
应该说想和朋友一起好过和我一起 大概是这样讲啦~
...haiz 不知道要怎样讲下去

心里是很不舒服 但我不能那你怎样 虽然我很害怕 但你有在意过吗？我是很难过你对我说的那些话 即使在你的角度想 你是固然没错 我曾经也有这样的想法/做法 但你也忍了下来  为什么 我就是做不到这些......

你说你很自卑因为给我不到我想要的东西...其实我自己也蛮...我总是觉得 历史会重演 因为我很长的一段时间不在你身边 在你身你兜兜转转的人...应该不止是我 吧

也许 你一点也看不出 我其实也是和你一样 你想要的东西 我也给不到你 另一方面 可能是我没办法接受事实是如此 如果......真的是我想的如此 难堪 我很怕很怕 会再次重演同样事件 我不停叮嘱自己不可以这样想 你是我决定一起走向未来的那位 不可以这样想你 但是 我真的很没安全感....也许你所说的“另一种方式相处” 并不适合我....这一类人 多几天就要离开 我一直很犹豫挣扎 不知道要不要告诉你好 因为同样事情 你并没有告诉我 我也想这样给你知道 这样的感受并不好 我很想很想告诉你 但我知道你会 就这样 的 带过 也许现在对你而言 在你生命里 我并不是最重要的那位。我也只能无所谓 我再怎样在意都好 你也不会再做进一步的行动 ....每次想到这些 我都觉得自己很可悲 感觉我在爱着一个不在乎自己的人 他可以对我说“你要走就走，我没办法挽留你” 这句话的人 每次我都写给你知道我心理的躁郁 你都是一两个字敷衍我 有时候我真的不明白 真的很不明白 你在想什么...😢😢😢😢

Confused Love

Feel so confuse between u and me ...

We had been throught so much but there always "scared"

I donno what time u finish work,I don even know where r  u or who u being with

When I asked the ans shows me is "I'm busy" , "I'm alone" , "I had no friends at all right now"

The moment u said I was so hesitate... Was it true enough??

All lot of ...imagination...was appear in my mind

I really really afraid of it....

Sometimes feel so speechless ....

I thought.....

Third day of July 

I thought the day of ur birth,you will come and celebrate with or give me call..

I knew Im the person who suppose to called you 

But I was afraid! I afraid of what ever u respond after what I had said

U don't even concern me what's going un-normal on me

Eventhough u wanted  to change in another way to be together 

Not that kind of change I really really feel uncomfortable

The way u just dump me a side 

How suppose I want to be like? I'm questioning you 

You don even ans a single word!! That so call responsibility? NO!!!!

That's ridiculous !!! I dint ever seen kind a boyfriend who can treat his girlfriend not like a girlfriend 

I feel insecure!!!! Do you know that? How I suppose to tell you and let you know what I feel right now?

What's going so wrong what I tried to tell you my feelings??

I know you were busy and you were tired....but than? You're the one who want take this job so u should take ur responsibility .... I feel speechLess and useless on you

Seriously ,if someday someone to concern me more than you...what would you do?

Im very curious on it ... What would you do? What ever it happen.....and what should I do if relly happen...

I thought in your mind I was in the first sit but I don think I'm the first one 

However, I hope you won't make me feel disappointed again and again until my heart dead slowly